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Ok, so I started Sophomore year like, three weeks ago, so I'm getting into the swing of things again.

Also, tensions have been high between my dad and I. I won't get into the major details because I think my hands would fall off before I finished explaining everything. To make a long story short: It takes me a long time to get ready for school. Mostly because of my hair, because it takes a lot of care to keep it from turning into a 'fro by the middle of the day. So I have to wash it, dry it, put gel in it, etc...every day. Because of this, I have no time at all to eat breakfast. My dad is becoming increasingly pissed at me because I don't eat what he makes for me. And don't get me wrong, I love my dad's breakfasts, they're really good and he likes to change it up every day, and I appreciate the effort, but I have no time at all to eat.

Because of my time problem, more problems have arisen:

-We've gotten into fights
-He's tried to have me grounded whenever I don't eat breakfast
-I went to school without lunch because of the fighting
-I've had various restraints on what I do after school
-I have to go to bed way early
-I have to wake up at 4:45 each morning

And the list goes on and on. Now, I love my dad. I really do. He's a great father, and he's my real father. Most people I know have stepfathers or their parents are divorced and the kid's only living with one parent most of the time. I don't want that to happen to me, but with this breakfast thing, I feel like just running away or living the rest of my days in a hole. I'm kinda getting depressed because of this. When I went to school without my lunch, I seriously was about to punch my locker, but I didn't want to break my hand. I seriously was going to give my locker door all that I had, and when I get upset, I get a lot, regardless of the pain.

Having a 9/11 memorial is also painful because my father was right near ground zero when it happened. To think that he could have been one of the causalities...I was getting shivers through all of the video. It just added to my ever-growing depression.

I want to resolve this soon. I mean, I don't want to be at war with my father over something as trivial as breakfast. I know that it's important, and I know that it'll help me in school, but it's breakfast. We shouldn't be yelling at the tops of our lungs over breakfast.

And as for art, I know I have been neglecting my gallery. I'm on it. I have two clay sculptures I haven't uploaded yet, I have two requests that I have to do (note: requests are closed) and then I have some ideas for upcoming pictures I want to do, but I have a serious case of artist's block. I was able to throw together a chibi of Mr. Spock from Star Trek to see if it would make my dad feel better, but he was happy for about all of five minutes and then he went back to yelling at me. :/

I'll try to get drawing again. I need to revive my gallery. I'm also coming up on 100 deviations. Hm. I think I'll do a special 100 deviation deviation. XD

And I'm playing Radiant Dawn after spending like, 30 hours beating Path of Radiance (Fire Emblem) RD is such an awesome game, but boy does it make me rage. Soren got killed by someone that was on my team in Path of Radiance dangit. :U I reset though. I'm OCD about having characters die in an FE game, even if they suck. I almost couldn't get past one part on Shadow Dragon because it's required to sacrifice a character in order to continue. ;_;

I heard it through the internet grapevine that the new Zelda Wii's going to get a new trailer sometime in October. I can't wait to see that. It should be awesomely epic. <3

While we're on the topic of Zelda, I was introduced to this Zelda chat, and we're in need of members. You don't have to be a Zelda fan to join either, so just follow this link! [link]

Also, one of my friends isn't helping my little depression mode. I'm not even going to explain why he's annoying me. But I was seriously about to punch his face in. I had to dig my nails into my skin to keep myself in check. His friend wasn't helping either. I hope that I can cool off during this weekend. I'll sleep in and then draw and talk to friends for the rest of the day. Maybe have a lot of comfort food. I need it right now.